Bye bye scrubs...

I am seriously not cut out for surgery. Major fail :(

The reasonS being:

1. I can't scrub. Or gown myself properly. Like, seriously. Each time I scrub in for a surgery, I end up having to do it all over again. Twice. Or thrice. Its either because:

a. I forget to put gloves in the sterile field before I wash my hands. So I end up having to scrub again coz there are no gloves in said sterile field and you need gloves, obviously derrrrrr. The registrar today patted me on the head, with a frustrated smile. He was amused at my clumsiness!! FAILLL.

b. I forget to put my mask and hat on before scrubbing. So yes, I blindly scrub myself (which is washing the hands and arms 3 times with soap and water) and suddenly remember why I don't have a hat on. (-_-)

c. I put my gown on blindly, flapping it about and causing dust to contaminate my sterile self. Thus, back to scrubbing again.

d. I fasten the back straps and buttons MYSELF (this is soooo stupid). The back part is obviously non-sterile so I'm not allowed to touch it. Supposedly. The anaesthetist chuckled when I did this and said, "don't worry, you'll come around". And when is that, might I know??? I'm already having a major breakdown coz I can't even wash myself properly, let alone cut people up???

So this is how its supposed to be done. Atiyyah, take note you clumsy girl.

I am such a failure!!!!!

So thats the first reason.

2. I just CANNOT STAND FOR HOURS AND HOURS. Its impossible! I think I've got weak joints or something. Creps are everywhere! Especially in my knees. By the first 30 minutes, I'll be all restless and shifting my weight from one foot to the other.

Today, I assisted a laparoscopic cholecystectomy (taking your gallbladder out without opening the tummy part, instead, a camera is cleverly inserted through your bellybutton and the gallbladder is viewed from the inside). I was the cameraman, and I think I did a bad job (even though the registrar said I did a good job. He was just trying to be nice I think). I felt I did bad coz whenever the surgeon moved, I moved as well. LOL.

And also coz Mr. Olagbaiye (my consultant surgeon) said this:

"Don't move so much, or we're all are gonna get seasick"

FAILLLLLLLL.

So there you go. My career as a surgeon has come to an end.

Bye bye scrubs!! You'll just serve as my pyjamas nampaknya. Oops kantoi seludup. Lalala.

Harus ada gambar bersama scrubs.

Wallahu'alam.